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NEW EL JAY. [28 Aug 2005|12:57pm]

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You wanna know what's going on in my life..? [15 Aug 2005|08:01pm]
[ mood | One of those smart-ass moods. ]

Visit my damn blog:


because It have lengthy and detail updates, filled with delicate details of my wretched soul. Yeah right. It's not that emo.

For loss of better words,
it's better than my eLjay.

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ATTENTION, ATTENTION. [13 Aug 2005|09:05pm]


Time: Noon
Place: Arcade


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Don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet, wishing to be the friction in your jeans. [11 Aug 2005|05:50am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Okay, since it's 5:51 AM in the morning and I couldn't sleep I guess I'll make yet another pointless update. Doesn't it suck when you're really tired, and yet really wide-eyed at the same time? Gah, I think I got so much rest from being sick the other night (seriously, I slept for like 13 hours) that my body doesn't really need anymore. Anywho, here's my schedule for 1st semester:

1-English 10 Hr CIS - S.Goff
2-Chemistry 1 Hr - B.Finnigan (room 213)
3-Spanish 2 - M.Bryant
4-Geometry - S.Smith

Isn't that just lovely? Three core subjects AND Spanish, with the teacher I didn't even want. I wanted Ms.Dexter, but noo.

Now someone tell me my lunchwave.

I do believe it's second.

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Surveyness. [10 Aug 2005|02:27pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Another survey. whoo hooo ♥

I see the bed where we used to mess around, we'd talk for hours before we went down.Collapse )

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[03 Aug 2005|03:06pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Yeah, okay.

So this has been a boring afternoon. Not much to do, but to think about how much summer reading I have to do, and just sit here waiting for it to finish itself. Hmm. Well I have nothing to say, but peace and chicken grease.

survey under the cutCollapse )

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You think you know me, don't you? [26 Jul 2005|03:09pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Stolen from mari's journal. Answer these questions as a comment and then put them in your journals for me to answer. Let's get it on, suckas.

What If:
1) I committed suicide:
2) I said I liked you:
3) I kissed you:
4) I lived next door to you:
5) I started smoking:
6) I stole something:
7) I was hospitalized:
8) I ran away from home:
9) I got into a fight and you weren't there:

What do you think about my:
1) Personality:
2) Eyes:
3) Face:
4) Hair:
5) Clothes:
6) Mannerisms:

1) Who are you?:
2) Are we friends?:
3) When and how did we meet?:
4) How have I affected you?:
5) What do you think of me?:
6) What's the fondest memory you have of me?:
7) How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?:
8) Do you love me?:
9) Have I ever hurt you?:
10) Would you hug me?:
11) Would you kiss me?:
12) Would you fuck me?:
13) Would you marry me?:
14) Emotionally, what stands out?:
15) Do you wish I was cooler?:
16) On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?:
17) Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
18) Am I loveable?:
19) How long have you known me?:
20) Describe me in one word:
21) What was your first impression?:
22) Do you still think that way about me now?:
23) What do you think my weakness is?:
24) Do you think I'll get married?:
25) What about me makes you happy?:
26) What about me makes you sad?:
27) What reminds you of me?:
28) What's something you would change about me?:
29) How well do you know me?:
30) Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
31) Do you think I would kill someone?:
32) Are we close?:
33) Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?:

Honest to god answers, plz. ♥

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Update of like..the month. [22 Jul 2005|09:33pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

I know, I've been lazy. Shut-up. lol.

Haha. It's funny to know I haven't updated since the beginning of hurricane dennis, and I probably won't be paying much attention to this journal anymore. I don't know, I think I've grown apart from it and I just don't feel the need to update it anymore. It's becoming a hassel more of something that I'm willing to do. I might create a new one or just ignore this one completely and leave it here to collect dust. I also see that other people haven't been too loyal to their live journals either. We'll see, you never know me.

So I just got back from the mall with Morgan, and we did our usual thing. I don't remember the last time I was at the mall that late, but we actually stayed until they closed down. We had a fun time, but we didn't buy anything because we're gonna go again tomorrow, but this time with more people. Why buy something when you might see something you like better tomorrow? Haha.

Anyway, we might goto Ground Zero on sunday. Goodnight Julia and 3 hardcore bands are playing, so it's gonna be a good show. If you wanna come just ask me details about it. : ]

That's it for tonight folks. I'm gonna be up waiting for Joey to get home so I have a lot of free time on my hands.

sweet dreams
chicken grease.

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I can't think of a decent subject anymore. [10 Jul 2005|01:31pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

Anyway, we're about to get some bad effects from Hurricane Dennis that heading straight towards pensacola, not us. But the power will probably still go out, therefore meaning no internet connection. What am I to do?

My dad decided he's gonna try to get the house as cold as it can get before the power goes out. That's just great for me, seeing as I can't stand it when they have it normal temperature. I get way too cold way too easily.

Anyway, good luck through the storm, gang.
I'm outs.


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You just need to understand, ahh~ just turn around, just around. wha-oh oh oh. [08 Jul 2005|08:59pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Hey, it's the last night at the condominium, and we're leaving early hopefully to avoid the crazy traffic of all the people trying to evacuate before Hurricane Dennis comes inland. I'm happy to say that my goal of actually getting color has been accomplish. I'm not pale anymore, not to say my tan won't fade in two weeks, but at least I can have some color for a little while.

I can't wait to get home. I miss my own bed, my computer, and my dog..oh, yeah.......my friends too, sorry guys! We were watching the dog competitions on tv today, and everytime there would be a black lab on the TV I would go "awwww!". I know I always badtalk my dog, but I really do love em and miss him everytime we go on vacation.

Hmm, let's see. I'm not doing anything, but my brother is about to kick me off the computer even though he's had it all day [annoyed look]. I guess I have to find something to do until 11, but it's so boring around here. There's nothing on the tube, I've watched too much MTV, I've played way too much castlevania on my Gameboy Advance.

This was a sloppy update.

you get what you get.

love you all

no matter what.



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If only I could make things right, there's nothing I want more. [06 Jul 2005|11:32am]
[ mood | Loving ]

Hey, guys. I'm at the condominium in Gulf Shores right now and I'm updating from my dad's laptop. I think we're going home saturday, or I think we're staying for longer. I'm not too sure. We just had Tropical Storm Cindy hit us head-on last night. The first thing I heard when I woke up this morning was the wind blowing fiercly through the windows, as if they were on the verge of blowing through. It made like a screeching whistling sound, and it made it hard to go back to sleep, so I was pretty much up after that. I looked outside the waves were gigantic and the wind was really strong, and all the tourists and northerners were standing outside looking at it like it was some amazing spectacle or the apocalypse was coming. Whatever. We're used to stuff like this, folks. They should've seen Ivan.

I got a new bikini yesterday, and if the weather clears up I'm gonna wear it today. It's really cute, but there's really nothing to it (my dad is gonna kill me). It's white with hearts of different colors on there. It's the cutest thing, even though my tan lines are gonna show over the top of it, and it's gonna look retarded. I got it from the outlet mall me, my aunt, my mom, and sister went to in Foley. I hope I can get more of a tan before it's over, because even though I got sunburned on both of my legs (hurt like a bitch) and it's pretty much faded, I'm still pale. I need more sun, and it's hard for me~! I burn and it fades or peels in two days, and I'm back to being pale white.

Anyway, I'm having a good time with my family at the beach, but I still miss being home in my own bed. I think I'll be relieved when it's finally time to pack up and go time, even though it is the beach.

I hope you all had a good 4th of July weekend.

Give me love.

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Whoooa ho ohh~! Guess who's back. [29 Jun 2005|03:11pm]
[ mood | Angelic ! ! ]

Yeah, I decided that I'm finally going to update. Aren't I lovely? You know everytime I decide I'm going to start updating again I seem to drift more and more away from Livejournal. So I think I've decided I'm going to NEVER update, and then maybe I'll update respectively every day. Don't I have great methods?

Well, I haven't been doing anything for the past few days. Yesterday I burned more than 10 cd's of bands that I'm going to haul to the beach with me. If you remember from one of my past updates, my parents own a condiminium by a environmental preservation on the beach. It's great, because there's practically no one around. Just trees and beach. It's paradise. We're going for a week with my family. My Grandfather, Aunt, and Cousin from Texas are coming too, so I don't know exactly how it's gonna work. I haven't seen them in a year. I'm just gonna layout under the sun with my CD player and have me and great ole' time. My hair turned lighter just being out in the sun at the outlet mall the other day. So when I come back I'm gonna have color, and really light hair. I'm gonna be lookin like a beach bunny. ♥

The other day I went to the Ugly Mugg with Morgan, Blake, and Devi (It was her first show). I think she had a pretty good time, even though it wasn't the greatest show I ever experienced. There were 4 bands and really only 2 that were worth going to see. It was alright. Morgan got to meet Devi, and she thought she was really cool. Who doesn't love Devi? Devi, you're gonna fit in nicely at Murphy, I see that coming.

The summer is close to being over. Not really. We still have another month, but it's flown by so fast. Next thing you know we're going to be back in school. I think we go back later in August this year, which is good news. I still have summer reading to do which I won't even get started on until the end of July. Not even. More like, the last 2 days of summer. God, I procrastinate so bad.

That's it for today.

Love you all.

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You are beautiful. [21 Jun 2005|07:57pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Under the cut.

you are beautifulCollapse )

If you don't understand, don't comment.

If you understand the intention, feel free.


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Stay away, I'm here now don't say sorry. [20 Jun 2005|08:49pm]
[ mood | So cutesy and fun ! ! ]

I really need to get new headphones. These are the cheapo ones that you put into your ears, and they're suppose to stay, but they end up popping out every few seconds. Either that or they fall off my head when I make the slightest move. Cheapo headphones that refuse to stay are at the top of my pet peeve list. Ohh, I hate them.

I just got out of a nice warm bath and I'm feeling nice and clean right now. I feel so relaxed right now, which is a different feeling than how I am when I'm about to start that certain thing that visits me every month. Right, girls?

The summer has flown by so fast. I'm sure this is going to feel like the shortest summer I've ever had, because I'm not ready to go back. I know we have more than a month left, but it's already the 20th of June! Did I sleep it all away, or what?!

Anyway, I talked all day on the phone with Joey and Morgan. I was so much fun talking to two people I love all day. Aww ♥. It was fun until they got into it. Oh well, they'll get over it.

That's it for today.

Peace and out ~!

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Roses for the dead. [18 Jun 2005|06:56pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Yesterday I went over to Morgan's and spent the night, because the plan was we were going to get up early the next day and goto the mall before Anna's party. We just decided to go early because we felt like it, but we ended up being there all day. That was alright though, because we had a lot of time hanging out with Anna for her birthday. We had a fun time. Morgan got her The Black Maria CD and I got her Armor for Sleep. I think I know her taste sort of, and I think she'll enjoy both. My feet hurt and I ended up spending almost all of my money. I'm going to go take a bubble bath soon.

Peace ♥

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I'm in your room..am I turnin' you onn ~ ? [15 Jun 2005|11:48pm]
[ mood | Feelin' it. ]

Late night boredom. Surveys cooked up nice and hot.

Turn Ons/OffsCollapse )

tell the truthCollapse )

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Please just kill the drama, goto sleep we'll talk tomorrow. Dream about me, and don't worry. [14 Jun 2005|05:25pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

I have good news to deliver! !

I got my permit today. I think it was the 2 hour wait in the Alabama Department of Public Safety. I did pretty good, and people are right when they said it was basically common sense. I'm not saying just go take and not read the book. It wasn't hard, but it's definetely not as easy as some people say. The person before me was on his 6th try to get his learners, and that really made me nervous. He was sitting there with his nose in the book and shaking his head at me. My dad said if I failed, he'd make me walk home. lol

So I'm sitting here watching music videos on FUSE with no one to talk to, but I guess it's alright. I might go over to Morgan's this weekend, and I'm excited about that. It's always so much fun being around her. We're going to go shopping for her car too, so she'll be practicing and I'll be in the car. Oh no, I fear for my life. Pedestrians, watch out. Haha, I probably shouldn't be talking.

Mari left me to go swimming earlier, and it gave me the idea to go lay out by the pool tomorrow. Today it was a burning 92 degrees, so I probably expect the same tomorrow. It'd be the perfect day to go up to the club and actually get some color. It's a shame I have a pool open to me everyday and I haven't taken the chance to lay out once all summer. Maybe I can actually get color! I swear, I'm really white. Don't you just love when people point you out about it too? Like in Math one day the teacher was talking about people with really pale skin have to watch out for the sun and she picked me out of the whole class as an example. Wow, I felt so great. lol

Anyway, that's it for today. Anna, I'm really excited about hanging out with you on Saturday. I think you're going to like what I got you, oh and you can't know until Sat. : )


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The party's started so guitarmy~! ! [13 Jun 2005|09:19am]
[ mood | confused ]

Okay, so I woke up today around 9:00, because I had a nightmare which literally had me waking up freaked out. I couldn't go back to sleep, of course. When I awoke I thought my bed was vibrating, but it was just me shaking, scared to death. I don't know, it wasn't that scary now that I think about it, but in my sleep I was terrified.

This is how the dream went. You guys might actually find this one funny. Don't ask me how I got this one, because I have no idea. It's completely random. Okay, so I was at St.Luke's and I was walking along the side-walk and past the library, and there was a lady walking by my side (she looked similar to Ms.Rice, but I don't think it was her). The librarian was standing outside, and I don't think it our same librarian, because what I'm about to tell you she would never do, seeing as she's a good person. I don't know, because I don't remember her face in the dream or any of her physical aspects. I'm just going to say it wasn't the one we all know and love. She had a book in hand (and for some reason in the dream it felt like that was one of her favorite books, or one she read all the time). The lady who was by my side grabbed the book from her hand walked inside the library violently. She turned the book to the back, inside the cover, and it read "Lain forever 4/28". I don't remember the name or the date exactly, but the name started with an L and the date had a 28 in it, so I'm just going to use "Lain" (the date might've been my birthday, creepy huh?). It's almost like she knew what the name and date meant. So she grabbed the book and went inside the library.

What happened after that was a blur, but I remember I followed her into the library and the next thing I know we were looking for clues, I wasn't sure of what, but in my dream I was sure. I think I remember reading "Lain forever 4/28" on more than a few things though inside the library.

Around this time we figure out the librarian seems to have had a baby we never knew about, and she had seemed to have kept a secret from everyone.

The next thing we know we stole a painting (or paintings) out of the library (maybe our clues led us up to the paintings?). My mom and sister were in this too, but I don't remember why they were there. We were trying to figure out the painting. It was on a sidewalk and we were all standing around it, trying to analyze it. From what I remember the painting was of a steering wheel (of a car). The next thing we know the lady (the book-grabber), saw a piece of paper hanging out of the canvas, and she pulled it out and of course it said "Lain forever 4/28".

For some reason this made her angry or sad or something, because she ripped open the painting and we saw all these pictures (what seemed to be home-made, as if a kid drew them) dedicated to this person named "Lain" inside. We took off all the pictures and underneath these heart-filled pictures it said "fuck you" in green letters and underneath was a picture of someone, I guess, brutally murdering someone else. It wasn't realistic at all, like I said before, it was like a 3 year old kid drew them. I guess we came to the conclusion that this librarian had murdered her own baby, because we were scared to death in the dream. We were sure she had done it, because it just felt right in the dream, as though all the clues led up to this answer, even though it was a rather strange one. We were scared and holding onto each other as if we were mortified. So I don't remember much of the dream after that, but I woke up and I was pretty creeped out.

I still have to wonder if the librarian had love or hate for her child, because she seemed to have written "Lain forever 4/28", maybe she wanted to remember her child's existence once ago. You never know..

So that was my dream, I hope you all enjoyed reading that.

Comment and tell me what you think


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Then we'll turn it up, and we'll play a little faster.. [12 Jun 2005|05:23pm]
[ mood | flirty ]

Sorry I've been lazy about updating lately, but it's not like you folks have been lacking on the posts too for the past few days. Nothing but the usual has happened in the last 2 weeks. I don't know, I almost feel like summer is draining away, but then again I know I won't be exhausted when I go back to school. I've gotten nothing but sleep, sleep, and more sleep. But when you wake up you wonder what are you getting up for, so you just roll over and go back to sleep.

I was suppose to go over to Morgy's today, and I was looking forward to it, but I really wanted to see my parents today. They were getting back from New Orleans today, and I wouldn't be there when they got home. Even I can admit I miss my mom and dad sometimes (smiles). So I decided we'd call a raincheck on me coming over.

Due to popular demand, I'm going to take my permit test tomorrow. Finally. Wish me luck, everyone. I'm going to need it, because I don't think I know the information like the back of my hand, but I'm fairly comfortable with it. I didn't wake up until 2:30 today, so I'll have tonight to study the book more. Hopefully I won't fail, but even if I do, I won't be completely crushed. The most I'll be dissapointed is that I wasted my dad's time taking me up there to fail it.

Anyway, that's it for today.

Comment and Love, please.

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It's not like it hurts that much anyway. [08 Jun 2005|10:49am]
[ mood | bored ]

I actually got up before 10 this morning. Whoa, that's amazing for me, considering It's a surprise if I get up around noon. Actually, it's not too much of a shock, because the dog has been barking it's head off every morning trying to get me up for the past week. Yes, right outside my door. It's such a lovely way to wake up, let me tell you.

I stayed up to 2 am on the computer, and my mom got up in the middle of the night and caught me. If you've read my last entry, you'd know that I'm suppose to be in bed and asleep by midnight. I don't know if she's going to ground me from the computer or not, because she's at the doctor, and I've been kinda avoiding her. I don't even remember what I up doing at 2 am.

I woke up with the biggest pimple on my cheek and it's all red and swollen. It stands out like thumb-sore. I guess it's somewhat camoflagued with all the OTHER acne on my face, so I guess it's not too bad. Really, though, it's not like anyone is going to see it anyway.

I don't know if it's going to be a nice day, but it's been raining for the past week. It's going to be another long and boring day.


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